The Moose Man

Moose is growing at an amazingly rapid rate. The past two days I have put new outfits on him that have never been worn, and probably won't be worn many more times! Jayme left them hanging in the closet because they look so big, but they fit just right. He is comfortably fitting into a 3 month size and I guess he is close to 12 pounds by now.
While he is still qute a grumpy and serious little man, he is beginning to show signs of smiling and talking. For the most part though, he isn't happy at all unless he is tucked up on a shoulder being given an excess amount of love. Ok, so there isn't any excess with a baby, all love is justified but a half an hour of peace for dinner without incredible amounts of love and baby jiggling would be nice!
He is the most serious baby I have ever ever been around. He is always staring, always somber faced. It's almost as if he isn't sure he really wants to be around right now. I really am hoping that he gets a bit more happy over the next few weeks. He is almost 6 weeks, so maybe we are close. There are occasions he lets us put him down, but usually for less then 3 minutes.

Jayme has taken to doing her schoolwork with him in the sling in her lap. She can have a bite or two of whatever meal she is attempting to eat before he prompty screams his head off at her. Maybe he is worried that she will drop a glob of freezing cold ice cream on his head . . . again!

He still nurses quite often, sometimes cluster nursing in the evening and really is a crabby guy at night. I'm not sure if we just are an overwhelming crowd in the evening when we are all home or what?

But, of course, I am still madly in love with this crabby, grumpy ultra serious little boy. I love coming home in the evening and snuggling with him so Jayme can get a shower or just sit for a few moments. He does settle down a bit once everybody is in bed, he just gets quiet and stares at me.

Jayme is doing ok, she is trying to complete homework that the school has sent for her, and will be going back to school full time in a week. Gabriel will be able to attend the daycare center that is on the school campus. Anytime he needs to nurse or can't be comforted, they will call Jayme out of class. She is so lucky to have that support!

She has been out a bit lately with friends, just to lose some of her cabin fever. I think it is good for her to remember that she is still a teen, and needs to have fun. This past month has been so hard on her, dealing not only with postpartum stuff, Gabriels hospitalization and schoolowork, but also with Tony's stuff. He has been over a few times cursing at her and yelling about various things. It is sad, but she is recognizing it for what it is. Right now she and Tony have agreed on times for him to come and see Gabriel that work for both of them. It would be good for her to count on that time, not only for Gabriel but also for her own sanity and having a bit of a break. I hope that Tony follows through, he hasn't been over hardly at all to see the baby. My hope is for both Jayme and Tony to mature through this, and work together.

So, for now, things are ok. I think we are ending a rough period and there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I guess I never realized it would be harder after he would be born then before. It seems obvious, but sometimes I miss the obvious!

Kat